Hello, my name is Mia and it's been 365 days since my last post. Probably not a single one of those has passed without me thinking to myself that I really should write a quick post. I really should capture some of the insanity of these times for my future self. For my kids. But then, the kids are wired and starving - for food yes, but more so for attention. Cairn and I have barely stumbled downstairs at 9pm after a long day of work and gym and chores and kids and bedtime and tidying up.
The computer is there, staring at me, goading me to keep up with this writing that I've so grossly neglected for so long, way too long to ever be able to catch up now, in the fleeting moments I have to myself before I go to bed exhausted and it all starts over again tomorrow. Sometimes the computer does get turned on but it's work that happens in that case. Always just work.
And I'm painfully aware of the family photos that are piling up on various devices around the house - needing desperately to be organized and shared and printed. Hysterically tuned in to how fast my kids are growing and how much I'll forget by not writing it down. And for all that worry, I just can't. I just can't muster it on top of everything else. And so I've decided to forgive myself. I've turned to Instagram in a major way. A picture, after all, is worth a thousand words. The thing is though, I miss the words. And so maybe, when the opportunity presents itself, I'll try again. Even just a few words here and there. But maybe not. Don't hold me to it just yet. After all, there will be a day, in the not so distant future, when the kids are not so demanding and the house is always quiet. And I'm willing to bet that when those days are upon me the words will still be here, ready to flow.
Speaking of the not-so-distant future, my Everley is turning two years old in less than a month. My Bella is staring Grade 1 in a week. Big deals, both. Pictures will be taken and words will be shared. Can't say how many but some. See you soon.
